want Vs need

We are so inundated by all the materialistic things out there luring us to cave in , sometimes we miss the big picture. I happen live in a country where materialistic market place is so deluged more so than any other country, and we get judged constantly by the stuff we own, as a result.

I think young kids in general take a harder hit & the most vulnerable. Mine are no different. I'm sure having a mom who doesn't go by the cool formula where stuff = love = happiness, makes it even harder for them! Sure, I'd buy them stuff as they need, not necessarily want. You give in to their temporary rush of happiness only to witness the novelty wears off pretty quickly and to do it all over again? Isn't that how we ended up with a generation that is spoiled, bored & materialistic in the first place ???

owning up...

i have never been good at opening up. still not either. one of the very reasons i started to blog was to unleash & may be let go a little. its a work in progress & still struggling to gather everything to share it out here. if you're someone like me who blogs about personal drama , you'd probably can relate to me on some level about how hard it is allow other people see you in distress. and make them see how vulnerable you are.

maybe this is going to be a difficult post than i thought it would. its always hard to accept failure.especially when you know there's some innocent kids depending on you to pull through. while i'll always be there for them, i dont think i can pretend anymore. despite my best efforts, its over & its just not going to work. funnily enough, i think i may have keyed in those words for the first time that i have been so scared to own up & say out loud.

life spells

i learnt pretty early on things aren't always what they really seem. yet every time something doesn’t turn out the way it should, it hurts. i should be immune to this stuff by now, instead of setting myself up for disappointment over & over. why does it always begin to feel familiar like the back of my hand before it blows up in my face ? man i tell you.. that invisible glimmer of hope can be so convincing at first & damningly misleading at the end. may be some things are just meant to be the way they are. laws of cause & effect are teasing me? it just sucks i might not find out until some time later...